My trust was shaken. I tried to choose to trust each day no matter the circumstances but I found that after constant disappointment and just not understanding why God wasn’t doing something, I just stopped trusting. Most people didn’t know because I put on the “trusting” face and kept going.
Then God spoke and I heard… “Cheri, its time to re-establish yourself in me”. My prayer became “Lord, teach me how to re-establish my trust in you.” So I started … with the very basics. Trust. Trusting God. Trusting God’s heart for me. Going back to the Word and little by little, day by day, choosing to replace the lies I had allowed the enemy to stuff down my throat — with the truth of God’s Word.
What has changed? Me … I have changed … and I’m still changing. Some days, it is easy and other days, it takes focus and persistence — a made up mind. And the thing that makes the biggest difference is consistantly being in the Word and allowing that Word to transform my thinking, which transforms me.
I don’t understand … so each day, I must submit my lack of understanding to him and choose to trust his heart for me. It is not always easy; it is a process and I am growing in the process. I’m choosing to trust — one day at a time.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:5-6